(a)
A person lives, say not lonely, in fact is false.
Recently always sleep less than six hours a day, go to school earlier than their reading also, often don't go home at noon, afternoon don't go home, nothing to go to the class. Don't know what people think is I too is responsible for the work, in fact, I just don't want to go back to stay at home alone. And my students, is not hope I often go to the class, because I will make them feel uncomfortable and often see me out. Sometimes I especially want to say, "I just want to stay with you, more than 60 people breathing can let a person feel warm."
I always think, since I'll signed, stepped into the school at that moment, I lost dream. Sometimes swing, if you let me teach 44 years of books, is not lonely. I can withstand such a character Can't sleep at night, I will be disappointed, confused, thousand thoughts, ten thousand kinds of thoughts. But sometimes, I like the quiet in the class, the class hour of laughter. Or when I talk about students quietly listen, even like when students say "hello" that a "good teacher". I seem to be far away from the bustling streets, city complex. Here don't have the political intrigue, without the smoke of the business world, only the salute each other, only that a smile to each other.
I looked at those revolutionary predecessors filar silk hair, light wrinkles, each a white hair saw them here every time, every ray of wrinkles, represent them here in each work. Sometimes, I also think I bald is wrinkly to knit the grain to the appearance of white hair, then I can later said, "when I set foot on the platform, only 21 years old?" If teaching in 44 years, I can completely failing schools.under two generations, teach the laozi and son feeling, should be very good.
World of people, some want to flatly light life, some let water fire away a, don't want to a moth, that is because of the fire burning not warm enough. Face the stripping of man and nature, material such as the impact of the tidal surge, the spread of utilitarian extinction containment, I always ask myself, at the time of personhood, works, whether it can keep up its net, own to Harbin, can let the thoughts of the deep pools don't waves surprised rings, can truly do down-to-earth do a good everything. A lot of people, always Mired in the past in the vortex of sorrowful and depressed walk not to come out, always feel world bleak, cool, is a can't miss the scenery. However, each person to this world, all from bleak place, only to the bleak place, walked a rebirth. People can't see the moon, because the eye already do not know the moon, there are some buildings blocking the line of sight, not intentional to admire the night with the bright moon. Time, it is ruthlessly cut Yi, silently walk away a person's youth; Time, is also a lovely adhesives, unconsciously will glue the thought can not heal the wound.
Life is limited, capacity is limited, people live in the world at the end of the day is just a dust. But time and space is infinite, a mianmianzhong the social law is infinite, there are infinite things beyond our ability. Think beyond ability in the limited within the ability of all, all departed from the law of life, not a wasted journey, even if barely get through hardships, only left by the exhausted. Maybe we are all the same, carrying a big parcel all the way to check which place we look forward to the dream, we will often feel tired, pain, lonely and helpless, happy so short, happiness is always scarce, even at their ease in our is so stingy. We climbed mountains, trek, hope one day life journeyed can become after some enlightenment such as sail, the wind like a duck to water. In order to that day, we carry on, reject, shoes broke, thorns cut the feet, hand cut, the blood flow more than...... Although, on the hill in front of temporary also can't find love and greeted with the wind, but we can built their warmth, to drum up warm sunshine, believe in the near future, life will be better.
(2)
A person lives, will become very lazy, then like fast food box. The most lazy, don't even want to eat rice. Remember when I was a child, every time don't eat when you eat, the adults always say "do you want to become immortal?" This the most is my grandma, because since the childhood living with grandma and grandpa. In my memory, my grandma fry bacon every time always give me thin choose as far as possible, because I don't eat fat. She afraid I chew don't break, can by hand to tear fine give me to eat the meat. And in the winter, grandma will burn a pot of boiling water on my bed in my quilt, when to go to bed is always warm.
Since the move to live with their parents, most of the time I cook a meal cooking, sometimes even I don't want to eat something, now that do, do not eat seems to have said "no" in the past. This life has lasted for five years, from first to high, or four years, from early to school. When sister also didn't go out to work, so will and her division of labor, but are generally cooking she washing the dishes I cooked wipe the table, I don't like washing the dishes that no technical content. I also like watching CCTV channel one at that time the diet program, which channel is forgot, because so many CCTV, just remember that is a group of retired old people how to save money around the house cooking contest. Is also the show to see much, just think cooking cooking is fun, when we have guests also try to buy chicken to kill, incredibly still kill death boiled ripe, also have not received bad review, so feel very with a sense of accomplishment.
Second day after that time, I'll go to vegetable market to buy food every day, gradually, and many vegetables seller wellpoint, "send me green onion" cheap also often pick up. Remember aunt, a butcher knife method is very precise, how much money she cut out is how many money, because her charitable face and gentle smile, I never doubt that she will quality. In the vegetable market, I know a sour pickled cabbage acid is pure, clear which lurou halogen GouWei, also know which not plaster tofu points, which is a farmyard manure of cabbage., of course, these are not fun to buy food is of the greatest pleasures can pit order when money pocket money, selling vegetables and ripe they are favorable, I according to the market price accounting, extra food natural can income bursa. But then I don't even how can spend money, you know to save the change, and then buy some puzzling password this. Actually didn't necessary, because their parents didn't know the word, father or I teach for a long time to write his own name, because of this they ate the rest of my life and bitter, but then I would like to collect such password this. Of course, there are always two sides to everything, shopping, sometimes let me upset, such as some people call to me, the youngest sister, what the point?" Don't ye men too obvious? Or indeed that oneself too good. As if even the neighbor aunt to my parents at that time said, "your son is like a big girl, don't go out to play with people, come back home from school will prepare the meals such as adults, other time in learning, occasionally to look at TV, I just don't like this a few root illegitimate son, don't bull shit." The words is not good, but it also can see that the aunt is very appreciate me.
Neighbor aunt has a daughter same age with me, or big me a few years, basic don't contact with the girl at that time, and even hate a girl, not so sensitive to her daughter's age. Just remember to test the attack her daughter is very hard, every night sleep late than me got up earlier than I, at that time the window of my house and her daughter's window, I always in her daughter's house to sleep to wake up in the light. That four or five years, I can't talk to her daughter twenty sentences, including an examination at the time of her daughter to ask my math subject, I also just put steps calculus on scratch paper, handing over and then close the door. Recently to go to senior high school classmate party, a person to hang out just by year to live in the yard, not old neighbor aunt, but didn't seem to know me, I also didn't recognize her daughter, quoted phrase to modify her daughter has grown graceful, language translated into our bedroom is the place called the tu tu the hair place become warped, and symmetry rank is not bloated. Xu had for a long time did not meet, then talk to her daughter, the chatterbox opened gushing, her daughter seems to feel a little strange, so asked me: "I remember you used to don't talk." Should learn to said to me: "so long". She added: "I will remember your dinner." For a long time, I don't know my neighbors aunt daughter call what name, only remember the aunt always call her nickname, I didn't also asked her name.
(3)
By senior year, father is afraid of affect my study, no longer let me cook a meal, mother also don't have time to get, of course, so they take grandma to come over. Grandma at that time, my grandfather just died soon, just want to stay home do not want to go to town in the countryside, then probably because mentioned I'm going to the college entrance examination, must have special care she had promised to come down. So since that time, I didn't touch the POTS and pans, haven't been to vegetable market, of course that the immediate treatment and no results. I finally don't family with a mess of the university entrance exam ashamed, to pit dad ate a couple of years at the university of dish of rice. First time always feel awful school meal, food taste, occasionally to eat sand hair what did not eat. Also seems to be normal, slowly eat chopped to chew the sand can't swallow chewing, vomiting, hair clip it away, because of bad chopsticks always make hard clip hair, simply opens continue to eat by hand directly. Can have a bite to eat is very good, also tube so many do. Later, because can't stay in the league has some jumbled delay according to point to have a meal, usually between ten several hours to eat also accustomed to, even if is have a meal, or just a cup for much more seats from, rice also can't move much. Sometimes really want to do myself a desks to relax the stomach, but also don't think it's necessary.
Recently, half ghost festival also is July, I also borrow live in uncle home, aunt do a table that day, along with his cousin, a total of four people sitting in four directions. Honestly my aunt cook do very food, but I still don't want to start work, she always said: "suspicion I Fried food is not delicious, you fry it." I say: "have't got for years, rusty." Actually, I enjoy the different feeling of more. During the dinner, my uncle tentatively asked me: "take part in the work, also can consider to find objects." I said: "you want to cook stir-fry before, haven't contact with a girl, wooden nobody willing to close right now." Uncle said: "before busy learning, can be busy now." I said: "I'm not a machine, can have a learning mode and their relationship." Look at uncle silence, I hasten to break the embarrassment, "don't worry, by contrast, I still have advantages of age, stability to say again first." Online seems to have one sentence, you don't noisy don't make not capricious don't rebel don't cut class not fight not to travel to play don't K song don't stay up all night not to drink don't go shopping not puppy love just because want to learn to work... What's your youth is eaten by a dog? Yes, my youth also really eaten by dogs, what have never done a few pieces of rebellious thing will be over? All just family love all gave you, do you still have the heart to let them worry again?
That day, I want to move out this something could see aunt, she has been chanting "in the past one don't want to cook a meal, you can come over after eating". Only uncle said: "you let him go, this time I can suppress bad, look at him in a bad mood, he watching TV when we are all afraid to change channels." Vacation and students share their experiences in sleep in before, I always like to say: "it is going to sleep, but want to shout up to eat in the morning, is a call to shout at the beginning, then directly knocking at the door to let a person can't sleep." Students don't seem to agree with my humor, hence scold a way: "are you satisfied with it." Yes, it is the contentment. Think, not enough hot water washing a face at home, my family always scold "etc to burn cooking, you will not wait for hot wash again." But you are a person, every day shampoo washs a face with cold water, cold winter not get fire, who CARES your hot cold, even if there are orders, not just the parents on the phone. Still dare to loneliness, I got really can give family, even if one day really RenMoGouYang, they can also how many can enjoy? Think about it, is it the time to think.
A person lives, say not lonely, in fact is false.
Recently always sleep less than six hours a day, go to school earlier than their reading also, often don't go home at noon, afternoon don't go home, nothing to go to the class. Don't know what people think is I too is responsible for the work, in fact, I just don't want to go back to stay at home alone. And my students, is not hope I often go to the class, because I will make them feel uncomfortable and often see me out. Sometimes I especially want to say, "I just want to stay with you, more than 60 people breathing can let a person feel warm."
I always think, since I'll signed, stepped into the school at that moment, I lost dream. Sometimes swing, if you let me teach 44 years of books, is not lonely. I can withstand such a character Can't sleep at night, I will be disappointed, confused, thousand thoughts, ten thousand kinds of thoughts. But sometimes, I like the quiet in the class, the class hour of laughter. Or when I talk about students quietly listen, even like when students say "hello" that a "good teacher". I seem to be far away from the bustling streets, city complex. Here don't have the political intrigue, without the smoke of the business world, only the salute each other, only that a smile to each other.
I looked at those revolutionary predecessors filar silk hair, light wrinkles, each a white hair saw them here every time, every ray of wrinkles, represent them here in each work. Sometimes, I also think I bald is wrinkly to knit the grain to the appearance of white hair, then I can later said, "when I set foot on the platform, only 21 years old?" If teaching in 44 years, I can completely failing schools.under two generations, teach the laozi and son feeling, should be very good.
World of people, some want to flatly light life, some let water fire away a, don't want to a moth, that is because of the fire burning not warm enough. Face the stripping of man and nature, material such as the impact of the tidal surge, the spread of utilitarian extinction containment, I always ask myself, at the time of personhood, works, whether it can keep up its net, own to Harbin, can let the thoughts of the deep pools don't waves surprised rings, can truly do down-to-earth do a good everything. A lot of people, always Mired in the past in the vortex of sorrowful and depressed walk not to come out, always feel world bleak, cool, is a can't miss the scenery. However, each person to this world, all from bleak place, only to the bleak place, walked a rebirth. People can't see the moon, because the eye already do not know the moon, there are some buildings blocking the line of sight, not intentional to admire the night with the bright moon. Time, it is ruthlessly cut Yi, silently walk away a person's youth; Time, is also a lovely adhesives, unconsciously will glue the thought can not heal the wound.
Life is limited, capacity is limited, people live in the world at the end of the day is just a dust. But time and space is infinite, a mianmianzhong the social law is infinite, there are infinite things beyond our ability. Think beyond ability in the limited within the ability of all, all departed from the law of life, not a wasted journey, even if barely get through hardships, only left by the exhausted. Maybe we are all the same, carrying a big parcel all the way to check which place we look forward to the dream, we will often feel tired, pain, lonely and helpless, happy so short, happiness is always scarce, even at their ease in our is so stingy. We climbed mountains, trek, hope one day life journeyed can become after some enlightenment such as sail, the wind like a duck to water. In order to that day, we carry on, reject, shoes broke, thorns cut the feet, hand cut, the blood flow more than...... Although, on the hill in front of temporary also can't find love and greeted with the wind, but we can built their warmth, to drum up warm sunshine, believe in the near future, life will be better.
(2)
A person lives, will become very lazy, then like fast food box. The most lazy, don't even want to eat rice. Remember when I was a child, every time don't eat when you eat, the adults always say "do you want to become immortal?" This the most is my grandma, because since the childhood living with grandma and grandpa. In my memory, my grandma fry bacon every time always give me thin choose as far as possible, because I don't eat fat. She afraid I chew don't break, can by hand to tear fine give me to eat the meat. And in the winter, grandma will burn a pot of boiling water on my bed in my quilt, when to go to bed is always warm.
Since the move to live with their parents, most of the time I cook a meal cooking, sometimes even I don't want to eat something, now that do, do not eat seems to have said "no" in the past. This life has lasted for five years, from first to high, or four years, from early to school. When sister also didn't go out to work, so will and her division of labor, but are generally cooking she washing the dishes I cooked wipe the table, I don't like washing the dishes that no technical content. I also like watching CCTV channel one at that time the diet program, which channel is forgot, because so many CCTV, just remember that is a group of retired old people how to save money around the house cooking contest. Is also the show to see much, just think cooking cooking is fun, when we have guests also try to buy chicken to kill, incredibly still kill death boiled ripe, also have not received bad review, so feel very with a sense of accomplishment.
Second day after that time, I'll go to vegetable market to buy food every day, gradually, and many vegetables seller wellpoint, "send me green onion" cheap also often pick up. Remember aunt, a butcher knife method is very precise, how much money she cut out is how many money, because her charitable face and gentle smile, I never doubt that she will quality. In the vegetable market, I know a sour pickled cabbage acid is pure, clear which lurou halogen GouWei, also know which not plaster tofu points, which is a farmyard manure of cabbage., of course, these are not fun to buy food is of the greatest pleasures can pit order when money pocket money, selling vegetables and ripe they are favorable, I according to the market price accounting, extra food natural can income bursa. But then I don't even how can spend money, you know to save the change, and then buy some puzzling password this. Actually didn't necessary, because their parents didn't know the word, father or I teach for a long time to write his own name, because of this they ate the rest of my life and bitter, but then I would like to collect such password this. Of course, there are always two sides to everything, shopping, sometimes let me upset, such as some people call to me, the youngest sister, what the point?" Don't ye men too obvious? Or indeed that oneself too good. As if even the neighbor aunt to my parents at that time said, "your son is like a big girl, don't go out to play with people, come back home from school will prepare the meals such as adults, other time in learning, occasionally to look at TV, I just don't like this a few root illegitimate son, don't bull shit." The words is not good, but it also can see that the aunt is very appreciate me.
Neighbor aunt has a daughter same age with me, or big me a few years, basic don't contact with the girl at that time, and even hate a girl, not so sensitive to her daughter's age. Just remember to test the attack her daughter is very hard, every night sleep late than me got up earlier than I, at that time the window of my house and her daughter's window, I always in her daughter's house to sleep to wake up in the light. That four or five years, I can't talk to her daughter twenty sentences, including an examination at the time of her daughter to ask my math subject, I also just put steps calculus on scratch paper, handing over and then close the door. Recently to go to senior high school classmate party, a person to hang out just by year to live in the yard, not old neighbor aunt, but didn't seem to know me, I also didn't recognize her daughter, quoted phrase to modify her daughter has grown graceful, language translated into our bedroom is the place called the tu tu the hair place become warped, and symmetry rank is not bloated. Xu had for a long time did not meet, then talk to her daughter, the chatterbox opened gushing, her daughter seems to feel a little strange, so asked me: "I remember you used to don't talk." Should learn to said to me: "so long". She added: "I will remember your dinner." For a long time, I don't know my neighbors aunt daughter call what name, only remember the aunt always call her nickname, I didn't also asked her name.
(3)
By senior year, father is afraid of affect my study, no longer let me cook a meal, mother also don't have time to get, of course, so they take grandma to come over. Grandma at that time, my grandfather just died soon, just want to stay home do not want to go to town in the countryside, then probably because mentioned I'm going to the college entrance examination, must have special care she had promised to come down. So since that time, I didn't touch the POTS and pans, haven't been to vegetable market, of course that the immediate treatment and no results. I finally don't family with a mess of the university entrance exam ashamed, to pit dad ate a couple of years at the university of dish of rice. First time always feel awful school meal, food taste, occasionally to eat sand hair what did not eat. Also seems to be normal, slowly eat chopped to chew the sand can't swallow chewing, vomiting, hair clip it away, because of bad chopsticks always make hard clip hair, simply opens continue to eat by hand directly. Can have a bite to eat is very good, also tube so many do. Later, because can't stay in the league has some jumbled delay according to point to have a meal, usually between ten several hours to eat also accustomed to, even if is have a meal, or just a cup for much more seats from, rice also can't move much. Sometimes really want to do myself a desks to relax the stomach, but also don't think it's necessary.
Recently, half ghost festival also is July, I also borrow live in uncle home, aunt do a table that day, along with his cousin, a total of four people sitting in four directions. Honestly my aunt cook do very food, but I still don't want to start work, she always said: "suspicion I Fried food is not delicious, you fry it." I say: "have't got for years, rusty." Actually, I enjoy the different feeling of more. During the dinner, my uncle tentatively asked me: "take part in the work, also can consider to find objects." I said: "you want to cook stir-fry before, haven't contact with a girl, wooden nobody willing to close right now." Uncle said: "before busy learning, can be busy now." I said: "I'm not a machine, can have a learning mode and their relationship." Look at uncle silence, I hasten to break the embarrassment, "don't worry, by contrast, I still have advantages of age, stability to say again first." Online seems to have one sentence, you don't noisy don't make not capricious don't rebel don't cut class not fight not to travel to play don't K song don't stay up all night not to drink don't go shopping not puppy love just because want to learn to work... What's your youth is eaten by a dog? Yes, my youth also really eaten by dogs, what have never done a few pieces of rebellious thing will be over? All just family love all gave you, do you still have the heart to let them worry again?
That day, I want to move out this something could see aunt, she has been chanting "in the past one don't want to cook a meal, you can come over after eating". Only uncle said: "you let him go, this time I can suppress bad, look at him in a bad mood, he watching TV when we are all afraid to change channels." Vacation and students share their experiences in sleep in before, I always like to say: "it is going to sleep, but want to shout up to eat in the morning, is a call to shout at the beginning, then directly knocking at the door to let a person can't sleep." Students don't seem to agree with my humor, hence scold a way: "are you satisfied with it." Yes, it is the contentment. Think, not enough hot water washing a face at home, my family always scold "etc to burn cooking, you will not wait for hot wash again." But you are a person, every day shampoo washs a face with cold water, cold winter not get fire, who CARES your hot cold, even if there are orders, not just the parents on the phone. Still dare to loneliness, I got really can give family, even if one day really RenMoGouYang, they can also how many can enjoy? Think about it, is it the time to think.
